Another Chance (All Over Again).

Over the weekend...

No one seemed too surprised that me and J broke up; it is almost as though they were just waiting for that day. Although, however, I am surprised that Mom turned out to be the one with the biggest reaction (despite her slight disapproval initially). She went, "Huh?? Why? [...] How?" This is in direct contrast to the, "Oh, ok" (add shrug, or not) I got from the few who knew even. Thanks for the concern a special few have shown, I was definitely surprised at my own handling of the very tough situation. I held up fine for a couple of days, and then, well, me and J have decided to give us another shot; partly because we still want to (try to) be together, and partly because I decided that this might be a good chance for me to learn how to trust another. And then I realised - all the negativity, hate, and anger can in fact be curled into one big happy thought, that maybe it is possible for someone else to actually care. Also, if I (as a student of psychology) cannot learn to form functional relationships despite everything I know, what hope is there left for the world then?

So now, off I go.
Wish me luck.